My Mind Is Being Torn Apart
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I am turning more and more insane, simply because the two ways of thinking my brain inherits drift apart more and more, and my actualy thinking/acting is changing depending on which side (emotinal/rational) is active.
The emotional part wants to feel love, wants me to express my feelings.
The rational part wants me to stay away from other people because I would have a bad influence on them.
This has been going on for a longer time now, but now the two sides are difting apart even more, resulting in me not knowing what I did when the other one was active (talking to people, moving stuff in my flat, making drawings, etc.).
I don't even know which one is active right now, or if it is a mix of the both.
In #LM I think I found the right words to describe it:
My mind is travelling in the gap between emotions and rationalism.
And the whole journey directly leads to insanity.
I even made up a quick sketch:
<img src='http://mitglied.lycos.de/adolfkrug/obst_mind.jpg' border='0' alt='user posted image' />
Some seconds after making it the side being active in my brain had changed and I couldn't even remember me putting that gorge in there D:
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I am turning more and more insane, simply because the two ways of thinking my brain inherits drift apart more and more, and my actualy thinking/acting is changing depending on which side (emotinal/rational) is active.
The emotional part wants to feel love, wants me to express my feelings.
The rational part wants me to stay away from other people because I would have a bad influence on them.
This has been going on for a longer time now, but now the two sides are difting apart even more, resulting in me not knowing what I did when the other one was active (talking to people, moving stuff in my flat, making drawings, etc.).
I don't even know which one is active right now, or if it is a mix of the both.
In #LM I think I found the right words to describe it:
My mind is travelling in the gap between emotions and rationalism.
And the whole journey directly leads to insanity.
I even made up a quick sketch:
<img src='http://mitglied.lycos.de/adolfkrug/obst_mind.jpg' border='0' alt='user posted image' />
Some seconds after making it the side being active in my brain had changed and I couldn't even remember me putting that gorge in there D:
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Really.
You may have an undiagnosed something or other, but been able to supress... until now.
SAY THE MAN WHO POSTED ASKING FOR RELATIONSHIP HELP AFTER HE THOUGHT HE GOT HIS GIRLFRIEND PREGNANT.
<b>IRONY.</b>
your a **** some of us actually know Obst and care about him, unlike you.
seriously i think you should see a doctor or psychologist.
Yeah right, you really know him personally.
Edit: Note it's different from relationship help, I had no doubt in my mind that no matter what the outcome of my situation that my relationship would still be the same, as is the case.
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Not at all. My girlfriend has had far worse problems than this guy, and if he's talking about it showing emotion then he is clearly not that far gone or depressed. A faker is too far, but he is not a 'true' case for depression or psychiatric help.
If you could give us specifics, we could help you decide.
I for my side, have similar problems sometimes, but mostly i have decided for myself to risk something, jump in the cold water and see how things turn out.
Since i don´t know what your problems are that tear you apart, thats the only thing i can say right now.
That's terrible, but just because his problem is not as bad as your girlfriend's was doesn't mean that he shouldn't seek help or tell people about it.
Let me quote Descartes:
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Schwierige Probleme in Teilschritten erledigen
Vom Einfachen zum Schwierigen fortschreiten
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Sorry for the non germans amongst you, it is already late and i am way too tired to translate this.
good night and think about it
"Dropping emotions" are what creates depression. Suppression of emotion, he will feel tired, get headaches and become ill. The best thing to do is let all emotion out.
Aren't you afraid that if you ever leave her she'll do something stupid?
My girlfriend used to cut, take perscription drugs, and smoke weed and cigs.
This druggie that she was all in love with a while ago told the school, so her parents found out, and she got help. She hasn't cut for over a year now, nor has taken drugs (weed or perscription). She also has dramatically reduced the amount she smokes (cigs).
On my birthday last year she was all sad and basically giving me a suicide threat. Fun stuff. I know at that time I was very scared about what might happen if I left her.
For the last month I have seen her once a week because of how busy we have both been and how time has spanned out. Okay so I've not left her but still alot of time apart and nothing like what has happened in the past has happened.
She's more or less over it now, I guess she is just lucky she had me to help her through the majority of it as a friend and then as a boyfriend.
Let me quote Descartes:
<!--QuoteBegin--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> </td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin-->Nichts für wahr halten, was nicht so klar und deutlich erkannt worden ist, dass es nicht in Zweifel gezogen werden kann.
Schwierige Probleme in Teilschritten erledigen
Vom Einfachen zum Schwierigen fortschreiten
Stets prüfen, ob in der Untersuchung Vollständigkeit erreicht sei <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
Sorry for the non germans amongst you, it is already late and i am way too tired to translate this.
good night and think about it <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd-->
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Babelfish FTW. Sadly that is of no use to me in translation. Fortunately I think Obst is German..... if he isn't i'm not sure how to explain the name :O
Roger that.
/me continues with his "life" as if nothing had happened
From what I have heard it seems to me obst that your "emotional" side is your optimistic side and your "rational" side is your pessimistic side. That is probably exactly what it feels like, but I assure you, nerologicals disorders do not nessicarily reflect accurately what they make you feel.
I know I have told you this before, but you really need to see some sort of phsychologist or counsuler, even just a family doctor would be far better then nothing. You won't have to tell your parents anything about it until you want to, very likely you will just simply never have to tell them anything. Use the fact that you live on your own to your advantage and get some anonomus help for yourself.
Your mind is not punishing you for being a bad person. I would argue the fact that you are a bad person to begin with, yet I won't be able to convince you over the internet, so I'll just assure you that the human body DOES NOT work that way, and it does matialize physical consequences for moral deviances. Alot of people here like you and care about you. You may not feel the same way about yourself, and it may not seem signifigant that people worlds away feel anything for you, but don't tell yourself that no one likes you/cares, it just isn't true.
[edit] dammit thursday, you are such a nub at life. Stop acting like it matters that your girlfriends is worse off then other people in the world. She may be a far end bad case but that doesn't give you authority on who does/doesn't need psycological help. Until you get a frigging psychology degree stop acting like your the expert on depressive psychological disorders. For you information there is MANY MANY more then one type of depression, and anyone suffering from even mild depression SHOULD be seeking help for it!
Only downside is now that I have more friends, I feel more depressed with them than without them, even though I'm having fun. My social life drives me nuts, guess its why I like the computer so much D: