Internal Voice
<div class="IPBDescription">Just how crazy am I?</div> Okay, so, I'm kind of sure I'm at least slightly crazy. I have this little internal voice, and I know its just a seperate part of my mind. Oddly enough, I can converse with it. He has opinions, he has suggestions, and we both realize we're the same person (that actually stemmed into several conversations about how we should adress one another, since I was using the pronoun "you" for it, even though he is me)." We know our roles, and we know that I'm the one in control of the physical body, and he's never going to get to use it, assuming its even within his power. I find him to be a useful ally. I'm not quite sure how he arose, or why, but he's been there for a while.
Does anyone else have anything like this? I mean, I don't think I need any psychological help; I realize what he his, he knows his place, he never asks for any sort of control, and he never tells me to do anything I wouldn't want to, and even if he did, I could ignore it.
Thoughts? Opinions?
Does anyone else have anything like this? I mean, I don't think I need any psychological help; I realize what he his, he knows his place, he never asks for any sort of control, and he never tells me to do anything I wouldn't want to, and even if he did, I could ignore it.
Thoughts? Opinions?
Comments
He seems pretty good natured. A lot like me, actually. We get along pretty well, make little quips about each other, and so forth. And I can silence him if I choose to.
Edit: If you're so inclined, Comprox, by all means. And I don't think he's a typical alternate personality, as he never has physical control.
Hmmm, maybe next time I choose to have a conversation with him, I'll type it up.
Not really. Think about something. Anything. Like, do a math problem in your head, or say the alphabet internally. Its like that. I don't actually "hear" anything. Its an inner voice.
Sample conversation that I just had:
Him: Why are you telling them about me?
Me: I want to see if anyone else has someone like you.
Him: Oh noes! The conspiracy is uncovered! My people are doomed!
Yes, the internal voice actually said "Oh noes!" I understand this, because he is an extension of my mind, and we therefore share all memories and learned behaviours.
I highly suspect you have just gotten into the habit of personalizing your thoughts for some reason, to the point where you have grown a character in your head. Most people are quite capable using empathetic ability to take on the personification of another being (many comic artists do this for thier characters), it just generally is confined to them chosing to do so. For some reason you are doing it inately.
Its an interesting case, but I doubt it is revolutionary...
Isn't that a bit narrow minded? I mean, for many intents and purposes, he exists. It doesn't seem fair to decide to eliminate a person simply because they don't have a physical body to call their own.
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Quoted for truth.
Why? Because I do this to, but intentionally. Whenever I think on something that is truly big, like a life altering decision I turn my thoughts into a conversation in my mind. The physical me who controls the body being represented within as well.
You have taken this to another level whereby both voices within your mind are one and the same, and yet by some will that I divine to be your own in truth, you have chosen to accept them as different.
If you want to continue to have things this way, then that's up to you. Personally I used to get really tired after such a "conversation" because it took too much effort to create pretend personalities of my own volition. So eventually, perhaps around when I was 15 or even 16 I don't know, I just sort of gave up.
I wish I had a seperate personality...it'd get alot less lonely...
but I wonder how things would go during sex?
"oh yeah...do it that way.....no man.. thats not right! "
I mean, I tell things to myself in my head, but my head never talks back.
Eh, just when thinking about things. Like whether or not to pursue someone I'm interested in, for example. He helps to weigh the pros and cons.
AveSatanas: I have also come to the conclusion that it probably is my subconcious.
Cold NiTe: Wouldn't surprise me. I don't think its amazing or anything, I just consider it to be a bit unusual. And I didn't have to work to bring him into existence, he just sort of arouse over time.
As for a name, I asked him, and he said he doesn't really see the point. Since no one but me is going to be adressing him directly, theres no reason for the formality of names. He's the only internal voice thats going to answer when I call him.
Edit: No, never out loud. Thats just a bit too weird for both our tastes. The most physical thing I'll do is type out our conversations (as we have them) every once and a while. Unfortunately, I don't save them.
If all it is is you being afraid of going crazy, calm down. You're perfectly fine. You're you, thats that - and odds are its like the guy reading about Malaria that thinks he sees worms crawling under his skin. Just freaking yourself out.
ive had a 4 hour long conversation with mine about why he/she/it exists
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Chrono: We did something like that. We agreed he was a manifestation of my subconcious. Then we talked about the benifits that could be reaped from each other. I get someone to talk to, and a biased second-opinion, he gets a continued existance.
It came to being from my own self doubt and lack of self-esteem. It pointed out all my mistakes and flaws, even ones that had yet to happen. It kept my in line through fear of my own failure. It no longer bothers me.
The voice that I currently converse with is more like what Cold described. Consulting myself on large life altering things...
Except not always large life altering things. Infact, the last conversation was more about couches and my exact thoughts and feelings about couches, also, as to what would have to be my favorite couch.
thats the only reason mine is here too for some reason he is quiet when something is going on but when im bored and not doing anything useful i get into full on discussions with mine
Yeah, if I don't want to talk to him, he can't talk. Although I will let him speak when things are going on, just to get his take. Half the time it just becomes us making insults about other people.
Its really a different ballgame. The more I hear from Cold/AneM/Mantrid about their 'voices', I'd say you're just conscious about what at a younger age is usually done intuitively - things like fear and worrys, weighing pros and cons and the whole yatta. Well yeah.
Actual response:
Hm... I can't quite say I've ever heard of this. It isn't skitzofrenia, as you're quite aware that the 'voice' isn't real and you appear to have some form of control over it. And it isn't telling you to kill the president. And like Comprox said earlier, AFAIK w/ multiple personalities I was under the impression they were completely seperate from one another and unaware of each other's existance, so that rules that out too.
It couldn't hurt to at least ask a few psychologists if this is indeed a normal thing or whether it merits you going to some sort of doctor. Check around on webmd.com or other places. I don't mean to worry you unneedingly, but it could be that this is just the start of a problem that could get worse. I would think its better to find out now rather than when its too late. And if not, well then you'll never be lonely, so hooray!
If the voice says "oh noes!" it can't be all that bad. :P
More on the topic of this internal conversation. I really didn't <i>just</i> use it for extreme situations, it's just that that was the point at which I deemed it more useful to internalize my own ability to make judgements and decisions and form conclusions into some kind of drawn out discussion, because if you turn it into a discussion between you and entity "X" where X is simply a sub-creation of yourself; augmented by knowledge that you know but are not conciously aware of knowing, then you can "re-open" said conversations and use them again.
As Saltzbad mentioned, at a younger age, such as our own at the times of these occurrences, things like this are more likely to occur because we don't know the correct label for them and the formal way of dealing with our problems.
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Mine used to say random internet terminology as well. The fact that it was capable of not being serious and more being a tool by which I could be aided proved it's safety to me at that time.
Isn't that a bit narrow minded? I mean, for many intents and purposes, he exists. It doesn't seem fair to decide to eliminate a person simply because they don't have a physical body to call their own. <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd-->
Oh that's not my reason for getting rid of him. You should get rid of him because once one of them gets their foot in the door, other others will be scrambling to get in as well.