A 2 or a 3. I just try to be as laid back as possible and enjoy what I have. I got depressed over the summer a little bit and realized how crappy it is to let yourself be like that. Decided to never do it again.
oh goody... err it depends. 3 - 7 depending on my mood. (1=good, 10=bad) I'm an optimistic pessimist. It's not NEAR as bad as it used to be though =D (thank god...) I used to hover somewhere near 8, 9... until I decided decided life's too short to live like that. Hope can have that effect on people <!--emo&;)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/wink-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='wink-fix.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Just felt like this needed to be pointed out <!--emo&:p--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/tounge.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='tounge.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Im sorry.
Yes, I'd be somewhere around a 5 or a 6. No actual friends. Rarely go to parties, and usually hate every minute of it unless I meet some of the more interesting people. I have trouble with making actually good friends instead of just aquaintances.
No girlfiriend either. I've been thinking of asking this one girl out, but I dont have the guts.
Wish I was old enough to leave <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/sad-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad-fix.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Life is basicly, for me: Goto school, come home and make models and whatnot, goto bed. Paintball saturday (hopefully, if not, week is ruined)
Cant usually get much higher, I cant stand not working and having fun, I feel I always gotta be productive for some reason.
No job, and small chance of getting one. Dad always complains about me 'slacking' about not getting a job. Not easy since I live in the country, and he has a job in the city, and hes too lazy to drive me anywhere.
What friends I have ignore me after school, so paintball fixes that on weekends since everyones always nice there <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/smile-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile-fix.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Hard to get through a day w/o other people wanting me to do stuff for them, especialy in school since people think I'm smart, but im far from that.
Parents divorced not too long ago.
It goes on <!--emo&???--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/confused-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='confused-fix.gif' /><!--endemo-->
InsaneAnomalyJoin Date: 2002-05-13Member: 605Members, Super Administrators, Forum Admins, NS1 Playtester, Forum Moderators, NS2 Developer, Constellation, NS2 Playtester, Squad Five Blue, NS2 Map Tester, Subnautica Developer, Pistachionauts, Future Perfect Developer
I fluctuate. Right now, I'm about a 3. Tomorrow, I could be an 8 or a 1. I usually get angry rather than depressed though. I don't think I've ever been worse than an 8.
When I was 7, my mother bought me a packet of Butter Menthols. When I got home I offered them around, and everyone that was home took one and I didn't get any by the time this was through. My mother said that she would buy me another packet, but she forgot. I will never forget.
Since then my life has been spiraling downwards: down, down, down, always down, but in my heart I know that one day I will be grown and I will walk proud amongst men and when that day comes, I will go to the newsagent and place my dollar thirty-five on the counter and boom, "Give me a packet of Butter Menthols" and I will be one again.
Until that day I must suffer the nightmares brought on by this injustice spawned of generosity and comprising all its woeful woes, and must console my torn spirit by singing myself to sleep at night.
If you close your eyes and listen closely, you might hear me at night...
8-10. Except when I'm playing games or doing something fun, (hiding from my problems.) 20 years old, never had a gf or even female friend (except online), I have never met my best friends IRL, my only IRL friends lives over 1000 km away, I'm shy as hell (or maybe insecure is a better word), I hate myself, I'm lazy, I'm a bit slow sometimes, I've been to one party in my whole life (not counting birthday parties as a kid) and it sucked too, etc.
The only thing right now that I'm happy about is that I'm on my way to becoming a computergame programmer/developer, which is the only thing I could imagine myself doing as my job. Everything else is bleh. And even this I was close to loosing.. if that had happened.. well I don't want to know what I would have done. <!--emo&???--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/confused-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='confused-fix.gif' /><!--endemo-->
The part I dislike most is that everything always seems to be getting all better, but then after a while I realise that everything is still the same.. or in the worst case, it actually gets better, only for everything to fall down on me again..
Lately though, I've learned not to care that much anymore. Makes me feel a bit better.
<!--QuoteBegin-SkinnY+Oct 30 2004, 04:38 AM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (SkinnY @ Oct 30 2004, 04:38 AM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> i got it all, gf, money, friends...
yet i find no real happieness in them <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/sad-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad-fix.gif' /><!--endemo--> <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd--> Really? I'll trade ya for diabetes, having no friends or money and never having a relationship with anyone that lasted long enough to find out that one of the friends you HAD f***ed her in the back seat of his car the nite before...
If I had those things, I'd be pretty damn happy. Spoiled yuppie brat.
ThansalThe New ScumJoin Date: 2002-08-22Member: 1215Members, Constellation
hmmm
some where between 1 and 8 I think <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/smile-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile-fix.gif' /><!--endemo-->
atm low (like low number ,not depresed) as it is my weekend now <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/smile-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile-fix.gif' /><!--endemo--> And I don't have to work when the little ****s will be egging the store
yah, I have just about jack and squat atm (21 and living with my mum, decent job, ok pay, mostly stupid coworkers, All my RL friends are in other states, I am missing my exGF who broke up with me last year more by the day, only people I have regular interactions with are my mum and you people and a few RL friends via AIM)
so, I swing, alot.
Any one got a Haloween party in NYC I can crash? <!--emo&:p--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/tounge.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='tounge.gif' /><!--endemo-->
id say 7-10 sometimes i feel good bout self so maybe 6
nothing real bad in life, cept im a bit of a loser, and ugly to boot. and no friends.... but i have no real problems like some people mentioned javascript:emoticon('???') smilie
1 meaning I'm not depressed at all... hope I got the rating system correct or I might fall into a depression. How ironic... it might rain on my wedding day, a traffic jam might occur, and I'm ALREADY LATE... wait, what about that good advice... that I just DIDN'T TAKE... hmm...
<!--QuoteBegin-DarkATi+Oct 30 2004, 11:09 PM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (DarkATi @ Oct 30 2004, 11:09 PM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> 1 meaning I'm not depressed at all... hope I got the rating system correct or I might fall into a depression. How ironic... it might rain on my wedding day, a traffic jam might occur, and I'm ALREADY LATE... wait, what about that good advice... that I just DIDN'T TAKE... hmm...
~ DarkATi <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd--> Why, that's not ironic at all!
<!--QuoteBegin-Crono5788+Oct 30 2004, 11:38 PM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (Crono5788 @ Oct 30 2004, 11:38 PM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> <!--QuoteBegin-DarkATi+Oct 30 2004, 11:09 PM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (DarkATi @ Oct 30 2004, 11:09 PM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> 1 meaning I'm not depressed at all... hope I got the rating system correct or I might fall into a depression. How ironic... it might rain on my wedding day, a traffic jam might occur, and I'm ALREADY LATE... wait, what about that good advice... that I just DIDN'T TAKE... hmm...
~ DarkATi <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd--> Why, that's not ironic at all! <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd--> Kind of the point...
<!--QuoteBegin-DarkATi+Oct 30 2004, 11:48 PM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (DarkATi @ Oct 30 2004, 11:48 PM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> <!--QuoteBegin-Crono5788+Oct 30 2004, 11:38 PM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (Crono5788 @ Oct 30 2004, 11:38 PM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> <!--QuoteBegin-DarkATi+Oct 30 2004, 11:09 PM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (DarkATi @ Oct 30 2004, 11:09 PM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> 1 meaning I'm not depressed at all... hope I got the rating system correct or I might fall into a depression. How ironic... it might rain on my wedding day, a traffic jam might occur, and I'm ALREADY LATE... wait, what about that good advice... that I just DIDN'T TAKE... hmm...
~ DarkATi <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd--> Why, that's not ironic at all! <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd--> Kind of the point...
~ DarkATi <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd--> Are you familiar with sarcasm, good sir?
<!--QuoteBegin-Crono5788+Oct 30 2004, 11:49 PM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (Crono5788 @ Oct 30 2004, 11:49 PM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> <!--QuoteBegin-DarkATi+Oct 30 2004, 11:48 PM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (DarkATi @ Oct 30 2004, 11:48 PM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> <!--QuoteBegin-Crono5788+Oct 30 2004, 11:38 PM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (Crono5788 @ Oct 30 2004, 11:38 PM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> <!--QuoteBegin-DarkATi+Oct 30 2004, 11:09 PM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (DarkATi @ Oct 30 2004, 11:09 PM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> 1 meaning I'm not depressed at all... hope I got the rating system correct or I might fall into a depression. How ironic... it might rain on my wedding day, a traffic jam might occur, and I'm ALREADY LATE... wait, what about that good advice... that I just DIDN'T TAKE... hmm...
~ DarkATi <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd--> Why, that's not ironic at all! <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd--> Kind of the point...
~ DarkATi <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd--> Are you familiar with sarcasm, good sir? <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd--> Are you familiar with my BOOMSTICK? o.O
EpidemicDark Force GorgeJoin Date: 2003-06-29Member: 17781Members
<!--QuoteBegin-Caboose+Oct 30 2004, 03:25 PM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (Caboose @ Oct 30 2004, 03:25 PM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> <!--QuoteBegin-SkinnY+Oct 30 2004, 04:38 AM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (SkinnY @ Oct 30 2004, 04:38 AM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> i got it all, gf, money, friends...
yet i find no real happieness in them <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/sad-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad-fix.gif' /><!--endemo--> <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd--> Really? I'll trade ya for diabetes, having no friends or money and never having a relationship with anyone that lasted long enough to find out that one of the friends you HAD f***ed her in the back seat of his car the nite before...
If I had those things, I'd be pretty damn happy. Spoiled yuppie brat. <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd--> Diabetes suck some skinny ****, but as ya say, be optimistc!
Wow this thread is actually quite useful. Makes me realize that just when I think a day can't get worse, some of the crap you guys have to put up with could happen. Wow... I feel immensely sorry for most of the people in this tread (ie Caboose), with a few obvious exceptions (ie flamebaiters).
As for my depress-o-meter, about a 1.5-2 (pretty damn good). Had a girlfriend, but she became a manic-depressive psycho who has voluntary insomnia (don't ask), so, naturally, a mutual understanding was reached that I would really prefer not to see her again because quite frankly she scares the hell out of me. Loosely translated, she called me, ranted about thermodynamics for 5 minutes, freaked out about something-or-other, then I explained that she was a nutcase and she started freaking out about something else (I think it was to do with cats, but I'm not sure). About 2 minutes later, when it was clear she wasn't going to stop, I said good-bye and hung up. Apparently she kept on talking for the better part of an hour before she realized I wasn't there. (By the way, this is under the "good thing" column, not the "bad thing" one). One would think I might feel crappy about this, but nope, my friends and I (including a prospective new gf, which I wont get into because nobody cares) think its really quite funny.
The only bad thing is that I have a massive biology lab on reproductive systems due monday and my lab partner goes into hysterical convulsions of laughter every time somebody mentions any number of terms (he has the maturity of a 2 year old, and the intelligence of a cactus). Oh. One other bad thing. This is the first year we haven't had a cat to keep mice out of our house, so naturally, there are mice in our house. We set traps (the snappy kind and the poison kind). The poison kind cause massive internal bleeding in the mice, theoretically killing them. However, when a mouse that's dying from internal bleeding hits a snappy trap (which decapitated it quite nicely), the blood quickly goes from being inside the mouse, to being outside the mouse. <i>VERY</i> outside the mouse. Oh, and I stepped on one last night while walking upstairs in the dark. Very unpleasant. I now wear slippers.
<!--QuoteBegin-Dorian Gray+Oct 31 2004, 02:05 AM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (Dorian Gray @ Oct 31 2004, 02:05 AM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> The only bad thing is that I have a massive biology lab on reproductive systems due monday and my lab partner goes into hysterical convulsions of laughter every time somebody mentions any number of terms (he has the maturity of a 2 year old, and the intelligence of a cactus). Oh. One other bad thing. This is the first year we haven't had a cat to keep mice out of our house, so naturally, there are mice in our house. We set traps (the snappy kind and the poison kind). The poison kind cause massive internal bleeding in the mice, theoretically killing them. However, when a mouse that's dying from internal bleeding hits a snappy trap (which decapitated it quite nicely), the blood quickly goes from being inside the mouse, to being outside the mouse. <i>VERY</i> outside the mouse. Oh, and I stepped on one last night while walking upstairs in the dark. Very unpleasant. I now wear slippers. <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd--> Damn. That story cheered me up no end.
Private_ColemanPhD in Video GamesJoin Date: 2002-11-07Member: 7510Members
edited October 2004
I would say I'm a 6-7. Due to recent general luck down to a 5. BUT. I plan to get that number back up as soon as possible, no matter what it takes.
<!--QuoteBegin--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> </td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> 1, Life is good. Halo 2 out in 10 days? (Possibly 9, it's past Midnight).
Where 10 is suicidal 5 is average and 1 is ecstatic?
I'm probably a 2 <!--emo&:D--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/biggrin-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='biggrin-fix.gif' /><!--endemo-->, I'm feeling very full on McDonalds and Sprite, HL2 is out soon, just about to have broadband, live on my own, girls are everywhere, Open Uni degree starting in Feb. Basically I've got my life together finally and things are going well.
For all those that are feeling bad at the moment and that things won't improve I will tell you that I was extremely depressed at a very young age (stomach ulcers at 7 from worry about the state of the world, suicide attempt at 10, pretty much constant insomnia), mom died of cancer, dad kicked me out, homeless for awhile, lived in a hostel for awhile, never any money, no luck with women etc.
Things do change.
Strangely enough I stopped feeling depressed at about 13/14 (with only the odd adolescent bout of hormones bringing me down for awhile afterwards) which was about the same time as my life fell apart. Been extremely happy ever since (still have a problem sleeping but that means I can fit more into a day, my body just doesn't need much sleep).
I personally think its not about what happens in your life, its about your outlook on life, if you are depressed then you just need to get a new philosophy. The one that worked for me is "Nothing matters", if you seriously and truly believe it then nothing can get you down.
I do have the "nothing matters" philosophy. Yet it hasn't helped me one bit. Even though I think, logically, it should have helped me alot. Maybe this philosophy is as much my enemy as my friend. I sit at home and rot, because.. it doesn't matter?
Anyway, I guess this was a bit off topic.. this thread isn't about me.. but.. it doesn't matter! <!--emo&:D--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/biggrin-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='biggrin-fix.gif' /><!--endemo-->
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I'm an optimistic pessimist. It's not NEAR as bad as it used to be though =D (thank god...)
I used to hover somewhere near 8, 9... until I decided decided life's too short to live like that. Hope can have that effect on people <!--emo&;)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/wink-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='wink-fix.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Im sorry.
Yes, I'd be somewhere around a 5 or a 6.
No actual friends. Rarely go to parties, and usually hate every minute of it unless
I meet some of the more interesting people. I have trouble
with making actually good friends instead of just aquaintances.
No girlfiriend either. I've been thinking of asking this one girl out,
but I dont have the guts.
Wish I was old enough to leave <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/sad-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad-fix.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Life is basicly, for me: Goto school, come home and make models and whatnot, goto bed. Paintball saturday (hopefully, if not, week is ruined)
Cant usually get much higher, I cant stand not working and having fun, I feel I always gotta be productive for some reason.
No job, and small chance of getting one. Dad always complains about me 'slacking' about not getting a job. Not easy since I live in the country, and he has a job in the city, and hes too lazy to drive me anywhere.
What friends I have ignore me after school, so paintball fixes that on weekends since everyones always nice there <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/smile-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile-fix.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Hard to get through a day w/o other people wanting me to do stuff for them, especialy in school since people think I'm smart, but im far from that.
Parents divorced not too long ago.
It goes on <!--emo&???--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/confused-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='confused-fix.gif' /><!--endemo-->
When I was 7, my mother bought me a packet of Butter Menthols. When I got home I offered them around, and everyone that was home took one and I didn't get any by the time this was through. My mother said that she would buy me another packet, but she forgot. I will never forget.
Since then my life has been spiraling downwards: down, down, down, always down, but in my heart I know that one day I will be grown and I will walk proud amongst men and when that day comes, I will go to the newsagent and place my dollar thirty-five on the counter and boom, "Give me a packet of Butter Menthols" and I will be one again.
Until that day I must suffer the nightmares brought on by this injustice spawned of generosity and comprising all its woeful woes, and must console my torn spirit by singing myself to sleep at night.
If you close your eyes and listen closely, you might hear me at night...
"Buuuuuuuuuutter Menthols"
20 years old, never had a gf or even female friend (except online), I have never met my best friends IRL, my only IRL friends lives over 1000 km away, I'm shy as hell (or maybe insecure is a better word), I hate myself, I'm lazy, I'm a bit slow sometimes, I've been to one party in my whole life (not counting birthday parties as a kid) and it sucked too, etc.
The only thing right now that I'm happy about is that I'm on my way to becoming a computergame programmer/developer, which is the only thing I could imagine myself doing as my job. Everything else is bleh. And even this I was close to loosing.. if that had happened.. well I don't want to know what I would have done. <!--emo&???--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/confused-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='confused-fix.gif' /><!--endemo-->
The part I dislike most is that everything always seems to be getting all better, but then after a while I realise that everything is still the same.. or in the worst case, it actually gets better, only for everything to fall down on me again..
Lately though, I've learned not to care that much anymore. Makes me feel a bit better.
(I'm depressed.)
Except for marce's post. Which ruled.
yet i find no real happieness in them <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/sad-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad-fix.gif' /><!--endemo--> <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd-->
Really? I'll trade ya for diabetes, having no friends or money and never having a relationship with anyone that lasted long enough to find out that one of the friends you HAD f***ed her in the back seat of his car the nite before...
If I had those things, I'd be pretty damn happy. Spoiled yuppie brat.
some where between 1 and 8 I think <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/smile-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile-fix.gif' /><!--endemo-->
atm low (like low number ,not depresed) as it is my weekend now <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/smile-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile-fix.gif' /><!--endemo--> And I don't have to work when the little ****s will be egging the store
yah, I have just about jack and squat atm (21 and living with my mum, decent job, ok pay, mostly stupid coworkers, All my RL friends are in other states, I am missing my exGF who broke up with me last year more by the day, only people I have regular interactions with are my mum and you people and a few RL friends via AIM)
so, I swing, alot.
Any one got a Haloween party in NYC I can crash? <!--emo&:p--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/tounge.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='tounge.gif' /><!--endemo-->
(need that human interaction thing again)
nothing real bad in life, cept im a bit of a loser, and ugly to boot. and no friends.... but i have no real problems like some people mentioned javascript:emoticon('???')
smilie
~ DarkATi
~ DarkATi <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd-->
Why, that's not ironic at all!
~ DarkATi <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
Why, that's not ironic at all! <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd-->
Kind of the point...
~ DarkATi
~ DarkATi <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
Why, that's not ironic at all! <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
Kind of the point...
~ DarkATi <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd-->
Are you familiar with sarcasm, good sir?
~ DarkATi <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
Why, that's not ironic at all! <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
Kind of the point...
~ DarkATi <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
Are you familiar with sarcasm, good sir? <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd-->
Are you familiar with my BOOMSTICK? o.O
~ DarkATi
yet i find no real happieness in them <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/sad-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad-fix.gif' /><!--endemo--> <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
Really? I'll trade ya for diabetes, having no friends or money and never having a relationship with anyone that lasted long enough to find out that one of the friends you HAD f***ed her in the back seat of his car the nite before...
If I had those things, I'd be pretty damn happy. Spoiled yuppie brat. <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd-->
Diabetes suck some skinny ****, but as ya say, be optimistc!
As for my depress-o-meter, about a 1.5-2 (pretty damn good). Had a girlfriend, but she became a manic-depressive psycho who has voluntary insomnia (don't ask), so, naturally, a mutual understanding was reached that I would really prefer not to see her again because quite frankly she scares the hell out of me. Loosely translated, she called me, ranted about thermodynamics for 5 minutes, freaked out about something-or-other, then I explained that she was a nutcase and she started freaking out about something else (I think it was to do with cats, but I'm not sure). About 2 minutes later, when it was clear she wasn't going to stop, I said good-bye and hung up. Apparently she kept on talking for the better part of an hour before she realized I wasn't there. (By the way, this is under the "good thing" column, not the "bad thing" one). One would think I might feel crappy about this, but nope, my friends and I (including a prospective new gf, which I wont get into because nobody cares) think its really quite funny.
The only bad thing is that I have a massive biology lab on reproductive systems due monday and my lab partner goes into hysterical convulsions of laughter every time somebody mentions any number of terms (he has the maturity of a 2 year old, and the intelligence of a cactus). Oh. One other bad thing. This is the first year we haven't had a cat to keep mice out of our house, so naturally, there are mice in our house. We set traps (the snappy kind and the poison kind). The poison kind cause massive internal bleeding in the mice, theoretically killing them. However, when a mouse that's dying from internal bleeding hits a snappy trap (which decapitated it quite nicely), the blood quickly goes from being inside the mouse, to being outside the mouse. <i>VERY</i> outside the mouse. Oh, and I stepped on one last night while walking upstairs in the dark. Very unpleasant. I now wear slippers.
Damn. That story cheered me up no end.
My life is great ^_^
one things that is true
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My life is great ^_^
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Resistance... to kill... dwindling...
<span style='font-size:9pt;line-height:100%'>Life sucks.</span>
<span style='font-size:8pt;line-height:100%'>And I can't cry.</span>
I'm probably a 2 <!--emo&:D--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/biggrin-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='biggrin-fix.gif' /><!--endemo-->, I'm feeling very full on McDonalds and Sprite, HL2 is out soon, just about to have broadband, live on my own, girls are everywhere, Open Uni degree starting in Feb. Basically I've got my life together finally and things are going well.
For all those that are feeling bad at the moment and that things won't improve I will tell you that I was extremely depressed at a very young age (stomach ulcers at 7 from worry about the state of the world, suicide attempt at 10, pretty much constant insomnia), mom died of cancer, dad kicked me out, homeless for awhile, lived in a hostel for awhile, never any money, no luck with women etc.
Things do change.
Strangely enough I stopped feeling depressed at about 13/14 (with only the odd adolescent bout of hormones bringing me down for awhile afterwards) which was about the same time as my life fell apart. Been extremely happy ever since (still have a problem sleeping but that means I can fit more into a day, my body just doesn't need much sleep).
I personally think its not about what happens in your life, its about your outlook on life, if you are depressed then you just need to get a new philosophy. The one that worked for me is "Nothing matters", if you seriously and truly believe it then nothing can get you down.
Maybe this philosophy is as much my enemy as my friend. I sit at home and rot, because.. it doesn't matter?
Anyway, I guess this was a bit off topic.. this thread isn't about me.. but.. it doesn't matter! <!--emo&:D--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/biggrin-fix.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='biggrin-fix.gif' /><!--endemo-->