I'm In Quite An Emotional Pickle
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does anyone know a good way . . .. . . to get a girl out of your head?
First to get some terms out of the way to make this cleaner to explain, my best friend's name is Jayant, and the subject of this story is a girl named Kathryn.
Jayant dated Kathryn briefly in high school. I knew her mostly by association, but we never really talked much. For a while at the beginning of the summer neither of us had many friends in town, so we started getting together and hanging out. In our first encounter we went out for chili, and immediately connected on a pretty personal level. We went together a week later to an awesome party in an industrial sector of town, and danced wildly on the concrete to a bluegrass band. We went to see Spiderman 2 (thoroughly awesome btw, I giggled with glee the entire time) and talked afterwards late into the night about things that we haven't shared with many other people. Yesterday, we went to a lake and went swimming with a group of her friends, then came back to the city and walked along a train track through a beautiful park for an hour or so. We went out for Thai food, flirted a bit, then went back to her house and watched Alien in her living room, which she thoroughly enjoyed. I left her house at 3:00 last night.
Now, on to the problems.
Jayant has said explicitly that he wouldn't be cool with me getting involved with her. Whatever I decide, I'm going to tell him everything I've been thinking, and I will probably be able to convince him, but it still sucks. Additionally, anything that happens with her is probably going to be very short-lived. Both of us are going back to school in the fall. I've tried long-distance before and I don't want to do it again. I don't want to be attached to anyone when I go back to Pittsburgh. On top of all of this, she is going to be interning at a farm for the rest of the summer and will only be home on the weekends. She is also becoming too good of a friend to take chances with.
Everything logical points to me not getting involved with her, but I can’t get her out of my head. This girl is absolutely gorgeous, and I can say that objectively too, since even before I had met her I thought she was one of the most attractive girls I had ever seen. I might regain my composure once I get more sleep, but damn, I am absolutely useless right now.