<!--QuoteBegin-Jean Luc Picard+Mar 31 2004, 05:40 PM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (Jean Luc Picard @ Mar 31 2004, 05:40 PM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> I'm a 6 time suicide attempter myself... <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd--> In school, my cousins, and the forums... Why do I hang with people who _almost_ commit suicide from time to time? They usually have better personalities once you get to know them, a lot deeper and not as superficial.
So han- stay, stay around. You might find a good friend sooned than you think.
Hey come on this si jsut the beginning. You know what...
First of all i think it is good to quit this forum not because i dont like you, hell i dont even know you, but of the fact that soe time people forget that the computer isnt a good place to get social connections and friends.
So get UP give yourself a little push. I hope you dont take any drugs i mean small ones little smoking pott, see i did it myself for a looooong time but it times like this it wont help ypou ****.
So take your time and do something out of it see you can draw some good concepts maybe you should think about learning more drawing, If drawing makes kinda feel happy (wich it abviously does) stick to it.
there is a very good sentence around made up by a black depressed man. <b> Get up stand up dont give up the fight, get up stand up get up for your rights.</b>
I know this wasnt the last time if seen you around here. good luck mate
dewd, no one sed they never liked you on these forums, well to my knowledge anyway. i thought you would be one of those cool concepters that was gonna pull out ownage concept after concept. tis sad to see ya go so soon <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/sad.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad.gif' /><!--endemo-->
see? the list keeps growing and growing. you were bloody appreciated around here, and you were noticed. sure a handfull of turdcakes may have given you the short end of the stick, but that's to be expected.
the ambiguity of the internet spawns tonnes of internet tough guys O_o just be contempt in knowing that should they meet you face to face their song would change drastically.
speaking of songs, i know what'd put you in a better mood. techno. download 'how much is the fish' by scooter. it's worth it. if the riaa gives you grief, tell them i put you up to it.
but seriously, techno may be really annoying, but it works wonders when it comes to being uplifting. i mean, just look at the title. how much. is. the fish? that's so awesome <!--emo&:D--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/biggrin.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='biggrin.gif' /><!--endemo-->
edit: hrm...i just read my own post and all i can say is, "HELLO AMERICAN ATTENTION SPAN! :WAVES: oh look at the kittie. time to walk to 7eleven. why? i dunno! for fun! why else?"
i think its my fault he left he got realy **** at me on MSN sorry dude if it was my fault <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/sad.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad.gif' /><!--endemo-->
The dark side: Life is pointless, everything that lives/excists or you do/make will be dead/destroyed and forgotten after about 100 years or longer , perhaps less if you make something impressive/important to mankind.
Everything what I ever did wrong I can remember, EVERYTHING!! ~it sucks~
I'm game-addict since my 8th, and started to get RSI lately.
why live?!?! I wish I knew, but I live to have good times with friends/family/relatives, everything you do counts in some way, its very nice to see how happy you can make people, and don't forget love! It's the best there is, such a warm nice feeling. I try to hold on very hard on good memories, and I try to stay busy with something productive, else I'll start having day-mares.
I.. Well, I've read through this thread and I realize you would prefer me to stay, but mostly because of my concepts.. I've regret my thoughts yesterday, my last friend IRL left me, my fiancée told me im stupid and my father tried to punch me to the floor because I accidentily dropped his laptop in the floor so it broked the cd-rom..
Perhaps I'll come back, but right now I need some time off, I'm gonna live with my friend for a while.
I appreciate your concern and everything you've wrote for me, I really do, but I didnt say bye because of you guys on the forum, you've never done anything but been nice to me.
See you sometime in the future, and good luck with everything
As long as you know you've got friends here, your amount of IRL friends doesn't matter. Heck, I've only got one myself. And only because we've been friends since Kindergarten.
Are you sure that your fiancée wasn't kidding, or just a little angry at things in general at that time?
I would try to talk things out with your father, if I were you. Just basically talk to him. Make sure he knows it was an accident and that you're sorry.
<!--QuoteBegin-Liku+Apr 1 2004, 07:43 AM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (Liku @ Apr 1 2004, 07:43 AM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> Stay? Please? I voted for your concept in Delarosa's Poll, looked best to me. <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd--> A compliment from Liku. High praise, indeed.
girl (i think, anyways) you most definitely need a change of freaggin scenery. really.
but first of all, i have noooooo respect for any man who'd raise an angry hand at a woman. i spent time in jail not more than a year ago because i broke some punk kid's jaw because he thought it was cool to beat on his mom. another instance involves my ex-girlfriend and her abusive father. he couldn't send me to jail because the judge considered it "protection of loved ones" when i broke three of his ribs, fractured his left wrist, and gave him minor concussions.
^- that's just a little bit of my angry side. if you really want to make my blood boil, tell me about a wifebeater...
on another note, friends are overrated. honestly, your irl 'friends' will leave you, use you, and eventually grow tired of you. that's just an honest depiction of the society we live in. you can consider yourself truly lucky if you manage to find even one person whom you can consider a true friend. defined to me, a true friend is someone who would compromise anything and expect nothing in return (but in the same sense, it's also a personal responsibility to make sure i never ask for such a thing. thus proving true friendship)
and my sincerest apologies on the outcome of your potential marriage. but another little bit of advice from yours truly, i've found romance is more a pain in the **** than anything else. "the chase is better than the catch" has held true for me time and time again. and just right now, assuming that you're still a girl, and in the event that i (more than likely) flirt and/or offend, my dearest apologies. but...err...what was i saying?
edit: oh yeah...no wait, i forgot again. dont worry, it'll come back to me <!--emo&::nerdy::--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/nerd.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='nerd.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Well glad to know you're staying, life ain't all that bad, think of every incident as a coin, on one side it may look like something bad, but look on the other side and it turns out to have a good outcome, afterall, what that doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger. I myself have been diagnosed with depression, but i'm keeping off the anti-depressants as much as possible, because i don't wanna be too relient on dem drugs, ya? It's all in the mind, positivity is the key to bliss. Don't let things get you down, think of this song in an advert: "Always look on the bright side of life~" <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/smile.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile.gif' /><!--endemo-->
<span style='font-size:8pt;line-height:100%'>P.S. Yeah, i may not seem to make much sense, it's near 1AM over here...and i've been getting less than 5 hours of sleep in the past few days...so...hum...my brain doesn't seem to make much sense to me... <!--emo&;)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/wink.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='wink.gif' /><!--endemo--> </span>
<!--QuoteBegin-mephmage+Apr 1 2004, 07:11 AM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (mephmage @ Apr 1 2004, 07:11 AM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> I.. Well, I've read through this thread and I realize you would prefer me to stay, but mostly because of my concepts.. I've regret my thoughts yesterday, my last friend IRL left me, my fiancée told me im stupid and my father tried to punch me to the floor because I accidentily dropped his laptop in the floor so it broked the cd-rom..
Perhaps I'll come back, but right now I need some time off, I'm gonna live with my friend for a while.
I appreciate your concern and everything you've wrote for me, I really do, but I didnt say bye because of you guys on the forum, you've never done anything but been nice to me.
See you sometime in the future, and good luck with everything <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd--> ACK! Parent trouble... I know that feeling.... if your dad continues to hit you, report it. I'm sure there's some markings there, so you should prolly get this reported to a Child Abuse center asap...
tho I found it also works to whoop his *** whenever he hits <!--emo&???--><img src='http://www.natural-selection.org/forums/html//emoticons/confused.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='confused.gif' /><!--endemo--> My dad's just hard headed I guess...
I think your fiance was joking... I know I know... I'm just 15, so I dunno what it's like once you start to live together. However, my girlfriend lives in MASSACHUSETTS and I live in PENNSYLVANIA (the states) so... yeah... we have our moments. We've been together for about a year now and we have YET to meet face to face. We know each other pretty well (web cams, digital pictures, and microphones ROCK!) and we're currently planning a trip to Las Vegas for some time in the next 2-4 years (after high school but before college). If it's true love you have there, NOTHING can break that, much less some little fight. My g/f and I love each other because of how we are. We didn't have a CLUE what the other looked like for the first month or so. Then we started having microphone/telephone convo's, and now we use web cams (when we can... my computer is retarded with my web cam -_-') It all boils down to why you love each other. In our case, it's because we get along sooo well! We have very similar believes, we support each other and can depend on the other... heck, even our astrological signs (I'm Gemini, she's Sagitarius) are super-compatible! However, if you get into one of those things where money/fame/good looks is the driving force... I suggest you re-evaluate your relationship. Trust me, those hardly ever work out right...
As for your friends leaving you... I'd say good riddance. Sounds to me like once you started having some problems they ran away... fair-weather friends I call em. You need someone that'll be there no matter what! You need friends whom you are such DEEP friends with it very nearly verges on love! <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.natural-selection.org/forums/html//emoticons/smile.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile.gif' /><!--endemo--> Those kind of friends only leave for 3 reasons... college, job change, or dying (and the third one really sucks...)
5ive- I agree entirely... I beat the living CRAP out of my own father cause he slapped my lil bro (6 years old) across the face when he accidently put his elbow through my bathroom door... it wasn't his fault! He went to knock on the door (he was holding something so he used his elbow) and the stupid thing gave way... ******* thing was hollow! Made of like... fiberboard or something... anyway, my lil bro went and told him what happened... and next thing I know he comes tearing down the stairs crying... and my dad's behind him... well, last thing that **** knew he was in a hospital with a broken shoulder and 2 bruised ribs. He hasn't so much as spanked another kid since...
Anyway, good luck ma'am! Go get yourself a nice cup of cocoa, find a good book, and curl up by the fire! Great way to relax!
Or, my personal fav, go open up a cann'o'whoop-**** in a few rounds of NS! Great stress relief <!--emo&:D--><img src='http://www.natural-selection.org/forums/html//emoticons/biggrin.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='biggrin.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Kouji_SanSr. Hινε UÏкεεÏεг - EUPT DeputyThe NetherlandsJoin Date: 2003-05-13Member: 16271Members, NS2 Playtester, Squad Five Blue
Well that made me sad <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/sad.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Hope you get things sorted out <b>mephmage</b>. I can only agree with the support which everyone has given you. Good to know the people on this forum are so supportive <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/smile.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile.gif' /><!--endemo-->
<!--QuoteBegin-Dillinja+Apr 1 2004, 08:06 AM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (Dillinja @ Apr 1 2004, 08:06 AM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> Hey come on this si jsut the beginning. You know what...
First of all i think it is good to quit this forum not because i dont like you, hell i dont even know you, but of the fact that soe time people forget that the computer isnt a good place to get social connections and friends.
So get UP give yourself a little push. I hope you dont take any drugs i mean small ones little smoking pott, see i did it myself for a looooong time but it times like this it wont help ypou ****.
So take your time and do something out of it see you can draw some good concepts maybe you should think about learning more drawing, If drawing makes kinda feel happy (wich it abviously does) stick to it.
there is a very good sentence around made up by a black depressed man. <b> Get up stand up dont give up the fight, get up stand up get up for your rights.</b>
I know this wasnt the last time if seen you around here. good luck mate <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd--> what he said... <!--emo&:0--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/wow.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='wow.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Im just wondering why it has a <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/smile.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile.gif' /><!--endemo--> by the topic name.
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<!--QuoteBegin-onos_turd+Apr 1 2004, 04:14 PM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (onos_turd @ Apr 1 2004, 04:14 PM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> wow you guys have some issues <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd--> well that was a bit rude. You don't even know these people. How can you judge someone you've never seen, and only read snippets of what they have to say on a forum? <!--emo&???--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/confused.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='confused.gif' /><!--endemo-->
leaving just becausing bad things happened to you and a feeling that life is courpting you isnt an excuse for leaving like this. Heck my life sucks, people at my school hate, yes they anoy me to hell, and yes they think im a lozer ( /But there are jsut ****) Yet it stick with my friends knowing that they know im a PERSON Who STANDS OUT and has an actually talent in this society and I never stand down. I recall myself being humilated some times, yes I thought of killing myslef, but i knew that doing that is just making me look stupid. But saying on this fourm that your useless and you life is meaningless is all BS. Seriously wake up and smell the girls hair buddy becuase you got people who adore you and are inspiration from your work and as an artisitc/inventor( maybe ) NS/modeling could be a sign of you career! You never know maybe staying here could get you somewhere, but no matter how hard life gets, you have to keep on going.. Yeah shyt happens, but the best thing is to suck it up move on. And the abusive father moment, I kind of have that with of friend of mine he has ADHD just like me and he goes crazy. Yet its funny cause his dad attacks him and hes all crazy and his mom whines to so it like being in the ozbornes family. haha LOL anyway i got ADHD too and I can make an **** out of my self and feel comepletely miserable about myself. But giving yourself negative thoughts is no way to act. Well all you can do is give yourself some time and hope for the best. If you want space from the fourms take it, we wish you farewell and I hope you come to a relaxed estate and see more from you great concepts. You will be greated warmfully on your return. I know you probably don't even know me, but i'm gonna cheer you up anyway. Well good luck, hope everything turns out well. Don't give up on yourself! <!--emo&:p--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/tounge.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='tounge.gif' /><!--endemo--> Poochi!
<!--QuoteBegin-Surge+Apr 1 2004, 05:50 PM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (Surge @ Apr 1 2004, 05:50 PM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> Keep cutting. Don't look for sympathy on the internet, look to a psychiatrist. None of us here are probably qualified to help. <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd--> that depends on what you mean by qualified (evil grin)
Was this thread an april fools joke? Just wondering cuz this forum has seen it's share today <!--emo&:p--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/tounge.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='tounge.gif' /><!--endemo-->
<!--QuoteBegin-chrono5454+Apr 2 2004, 12:28 AM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (chrono5454 @ Apr 2 2004, 12:28 AM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> <!--QuoteBegin-Surge+Apr 1 2004, 05:50 PM--></div><table border='0' align='center' width='95%' cellpadding='3' cellspacing='1'><tr><td><b>QUOTE</b> (Surge @ Apr 1 2004, 05:50 PM)</td></tr><tr><td id='QUOTE'><!--QuoteEBegin--> Keep cutting. Don't look for sympathy on the internet, look to a psychiatrist. None of us here are probably qualified to help. <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd--> that depends on what you mean by qualified (evil grin) <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd--> lol chrono
yes, look to a psychiatrist, because everybody has the res to just go see one that costs $250+ an hour (without insurance coverage anyways)
and as for the keep cutting comment, i'll assume you're just so perfect and your life is so bright and sunny that you've never had to feel the pain some of us have had to endure.
i've got a story to share, simply because of people like you surge. i dont mean to sound like a total dic k, but sometimes people need support from someone. it's not sympathy they're looking for, or even help. just a sense of existence. anyways, story time.
i fell in love with a girl. turned my life completely inside out for her. i gave her everything she could ever want. i devoted my time, my energy, my life to her. i was in love with her completely. it wasn't some high school sweetheart thing, it was just recently (e.g. a year ago when may comes around)
long story short, she tore my heart out. i'm not asking you to tell me whether or not you've ever expereicned anything like this, but i just want to provide some insight as to what i felt, and perhaps what meph may be feeling.
when sh it hits the fan, and things get bad, you have to have some sort of support to help you out. i dont care how strong or independent you are, if you live with nothing then you have nothing. and with nothing, what's the point of living?
when you have a void in your life, something that was once so full and vibrant that you couldn't have a care in the world. lose that and you've seemingly lost everything. i was really shaken up over losing this girl. bad. there were days when i was literally numb. no feeling, emotional or physical.
to combat that, i cut myself up pretty good.
i wasn't trying to kill myself, just trying to feel again. feel anything. i didn't care what, i just didn't want to be numb like that anymore.
i punched a mirror and broke off a shard to utilize. four cuts (three on my wrist, one across my throat), 24 stitches, and 1/2 quart of blood transfusion later, i'm still alive. i nearly died a year ago, and i wouldn't wish such a thing on my worst enemy. i didn't want to have to take these pictures for you kids, because they're not things i'm proud of, but i've had to explain this time and again.
but in closing, serge, try cutting your wrist open and watching the blood trickle down around you, then give me some advice. i hope you never have to experience such a thing, truly, and i dont want to sound terribly rude, but keep your mouth shut about these things. especially cutting.
ouch... taht had to hurt. Yeah it sucks to loose a girlfriend that truly click with and get blown off. It really hurts bad and you think its all over. Yup taht sucks, but heck there are millions of girls out there to find so keep looking... and for five, your fcking crazy lol! I geuss he could say he cheated death, or maybe he didnt die because. maybe god wanted him to live? Who know im no freaking rabi or priest, but hey everyone has a purpose, and well all have a career, that is our purpose and pleasing others.
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In school, my cousins, and the forums... Why do I hang with people who _almost_ commit suicide from time to time? They usually have better personalities once you get to know them, a lot deeper and not as superficial.
So han- stay, stay around. You might find a good friend sooned than you think.
First of all i think it is good to quit this forum not because i dont like you, hell i dont even know you, but of the fact that soe time people forget that the computer isnt a good place to get social connections and friends.
So get UP give yourself a little push. I hope you dont take any drugs i mean small ones little smoking pott, see i did it myself for a looooong time but it times like this it wont help ypou ****.
So take your time and do something out of it see you can draw some good concepts maybe you should think about learning more drawing,
If drawing makes kinda feel happy (wich it abviously does) stick to it.
there is a very good sentence around made up by a black depressed man.
<b>
Get up stand up dont give up the fight, get up stand up get up for your rights.</b>
I know this wasnt the last time if seen you around here. good luck mate
the ambiguity of the internet spawns tonnes of internet tough guys O_o just be contempt in knowing that should they meet you face to face their song would change drastically.
speaking of songs, i know what'd put you in a better mood. techno. download 'how much is the fish' by scooter. it's worth it. if the riaa gives you grief, tell them i put you up to it.
but seriously, techno may be really annoying, but it works wonders when it comes to being uplifting. i mean, just look at the title. how much. is. the fish? that's so awesome <!--emo&:D--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/biggrin.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='biggrin.gif' /><!--endemo-->
edit: hrm...i just read my own post and all i can say is, "HELLO AMERICAN ATTENTION SPAN! :WAVES: oh look at the kittie. time to walk to 7eleven. why? i dunno! for fun! why else?"
Life is pointless, everything that lives/excists or you do/make will be dead/destroyed and forgotten after about 100 years or longer , perhaps less if you make something impressive/important to mankind.
Everything what I ever did wrong I can remember, EVERYTHING!!
~it sucks~
I'm game-addict since my 8th, and started to get RSI lately.
why live?!?!
I wish I knew, but I live to have good times with friends/family/relatives, everything you do counts in some way, its very nice to see how happy you can make people, and don't forget love! It's the best there is, such a warm nice feeling.
I try to hold on very hard on good memories, and I try to stay busy with something productive, else I'll start having day-mares.
KEEP LIVING PPL! AND LOVE EACH OTHER!
(/me off gaming)
I've regret my thoughts yesterday, my last friend IRL left me, my fiancée told me im stupid and my father tried to punch me to the floor because I accidentily dropped his laptop in the floor so it broked the cd-rom..
Perhaps I'll come back, but right now I need some time off, I'm gonna live with my friend for a while.
I appreciate your concern and everything you've wrote for me, I really do, but I didnt say bye because of you guys on the forum, you've never done anything but been nice to me.
See you sometime in the future, and good luck with everything
Are you sure that your fiancée wasn't kidding, or just a little angry at things in general at that time?
I would try to talk things out with your father, if I were you. Just basically talk to him. Make sure he knows it was an accident and that you're sorry.
oh u stay? YEAH!!!!!!!
A compliment from Liku. High praise, indeed.
but first of all, i have noooooo respect for any man who'd raise an angry hand at a woman. i spent time in jail not more than a year ago because i broke some punk kid's jaw because he thought it was cool to beat on his mom. another instance involves my ex-girlfriend and her abusive father. he couldn't send me to jail because the judge considered it "protection of loved ones" when i broke three of his ribs, fractured his left wrist, and gave him minor concussions.
^- that's just a little bit of my angry side. if you really want to make my blood boil, tell me about a wifebeater...
on another note, friends are overrated. honestly, your irl 'friends' will leave you, use you, and eventually grow tired of you. that's just an honest depiction of the society we live in. you can consider yourself truly lucky if you manage to find even one person whom you can consider a true friend. defined to me, a true friend is someone who would compromise anything and expect nothing in return (but in the same sense, it's also a personal responsibility to make sure i never ask for such a thing. thus proving true friendship)
and my sincerest apologies on the outcome of your potential marriage. but another little bit of advice from yours truly, i've found romance is more a pain in the **** than anything else. "the chase is better than the catch" has held true for me time and time again. and just right now, assuming that you're still a girl, and in the event that i (more than likely) flirt and/or offend, my dearest apologies. but...err...what was i saying?
edit: oh yeah...no wait, i forgot again. dont worry, it'll come back to me <!--emo&::nerdy::--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/nerd.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='nerd.gif' /><!--endemo-->
<span style='font-size:8pt;line-height:100%'>P.S. Yeah, i may not seem to make much sense, it's near 1AM over here...and i've been getting less than 5 hours of sleep in the past few days...so...hum...my brain doesn't seem to make much sense to me... <!--emo&;)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/wink.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='wink.gif' /><!--endemo--> </span>
I've regret my thoughts yesterday, my last friend IRL left me, my fiancée told me im stupid and my father tried to punch me to the floor because I accidentily dropped his laptop in the floor so it broked the cd-rom..
Perhaps I'll come back, but right now I need some time off, I'm gonna live with my friend for a while.
I appreciate your concern and everything you've wrote for me, I really do, but I didnt say bye because of you guys on the forum, you've never done anything but been nice to me.
See you sometime in the future, and good luck with everything <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
ACK! Parent trouble... I know that feeling.... if your dad continues to hit you, report it. I'm sure there's some markings there, so you should prolly get this reported to a Child Abuse center asap...
tho I found it also works to whoop his *** whenever he hits <!--emo&???--><img src='http://www.natural-selection.org/forums/html//emoticons/confused.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='confused.gif' /><!--endemo--> My dad's just hard headed I guess...
I think your fiance was joking... I know I know... I'm just 15, so I dunno what it's like once you start to live together. However, my girlfriend lives in MASSACHUSETTS and I live in PENNSYLVANIA (the states) so... yeah... we have our moments. We've been together for about a year now and we have YET to meet face to face. We know each other pretty well (web cams, digital pictures, and microphones ROCK!) and we're currently planning a trip to Las Vegas for some time in the next 2-4 years (after high school but before college). If it's true love you have there, NOTHING can break that, much less some little fight. My g/f and I love each other because of how we are. We didn't have a CLUE what the other looked like for the first month or so. Then we started having microphone/telephone convo's, and now we use web cams (when we can... my computer is retarded with my web cam -_-') It all boils down to why you love each other. In our case, it's because we get along sooo well! We have very similar believes, we support each other and can depend on the other... heck, even our astrological signs (I'm Gemini, she's Sagitarius) are super-compatible! However, if you get into one of those things where money/fame/good looks is the driving force... I suggest you re-evaluate your relationship. Trust me, those hardly ever work out right...
As for your friends leaving you... I'd say good riddance. Sounds to me like once you started having some problems they ran away... fair-weather friends I call em. You need someone that'll be there no matter what! You need friends whom you are such DEEP friends with it very nearly verges on love! <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.natural-selection.org/forums/html//emoticons/smile.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile.gif' /><!--endemo--> Those kind of friends only leave for 3 reasons... college, job change, or dying (and the third one really sucks...)
5ive- I agree entirely... I beat the living CRAP out of my own father cause he slapped my lil bro (6 years old) across the face when he accidently put his elbow through my bathroom door... it wasn't his fault! He went to knock on the door (he was holding something so he used his elbow) and the stupid thing gave way... ******* thing was hollow! Made of like... fiberboard or something... anyway, my lil bro went and told him what happened... and next thing I know he comes tearing down the stairs crying... and my dad's behind him... well, last thing that **** knew he was in a hospital with a broken shoulder and 2 bruised ribs. He hasn't so much as spanked another kid since...
Anyway, good luck ma'am! Go get yourself a nice cup of cocoa, find a good book, and curl up by the fire! Great way to relax!
Or, my personal fav, go open up a cann'o'whoop-**** in a few rounds of NS! Great stress relief <!--emo&:D--><img src='http://www.natural-selection.org/forums/html//emoticons/biggrin.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='biggrin.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Hope you get things sorted out <b>mephmage</b>. I can only agree with the support which everyone has given you. Good to know the people on this forum are so supportive <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/smile.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile.gif' /><!--endemo-->
First of all i think it is good to quit this forum not because i dont like you, hell i dont even know you, but of the fact that soe time people forget that the computer isnt a good place to get social connections and friends.
So get UP give yourself a little push. I hope you dont take any drugs i mean small ones little smoking pott, see i did it myself for a looooong time but it times like this it wont help ypou ****.
So take your time and do something out of it see you can draw some good concepts maybe you should think about learning more drawing,
If drawing makes kinda feel happy (wich it abviously does) stick to it.
there is a very good sentence around made up by a black depressed man.
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Get up stand up dont give up the fight, get up stand up get up for your rights.</b>
I know this wasnt the last time if seen you around here. good luck mate <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd-->
what he said... <!--emo&:0--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/wow.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='wow.gif' /><!--endemo-->
well that was a bit rude. You don't even know these people. How can you judge someone you've never seen, and only read snippets of what they have to say on a forum? <!--emo&???--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/confused.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='confused.gif' /><!--endemo-->
Don't give up on yourself! <!--emo&:p--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/tounge.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='tounge.gif' /><!--endemo--> Poochi!
that depends on what you mean by qualified (evil grin)
Just wondering cuz this forum has seen it's share today <!--emo&:p--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html//emoticons/tounge.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='tounge.gif' /><!--endemo-->
that depends on what you mean by qualified (evil grin) <!--QuoteEnd--></td></tr></table><div class='postcolor'><!--QuoteEEnd-->
lol chrono
No panther this is real...
and as for the keep cutting comment, i'll assume you're just so perfect and your life is so bright and sunny that you've never had to feel the pain some of us have had to endure.
i've got a story to share, simply because of people like you surge. i dont mean to sound like a total dic k, but sometimes people need support from someone. it's not sympathy they're looking for, or even help. just a sense of existence. anyways, story time.
i fell in love with a girl. turned my life completely inside out for her. i gave her everything she could ever want. i devoted my time, my energy, my life to her. i was in love with her completely. it wasn't some high school sweetheart thing, it was just recently (e.g. a year ago when may comes around)
long story short, she tore my heart out. i'm not asking you to tell me whether or not you've ever expereicned anything like this, but i just want to provide some insight as to what i felt, and perhaps what meph may be feeling.
when sh it hits the fan, and things get bad, you have to have some sort of support to help you out. i dont care how strong or independent you are, if you live with nothing then you have nothing. and with nothing, what's the point of living?
when you have a void in your life, something that was once so full and vibrant that you couldn't have a care in the world. lose that and you've seemingly lost everything. i was really shaken up over losing this girl. bad. there were days when i was literally numb. no feeling, emotional or physical.
to combat that, i cut myself up pretty good.
i wasn't trying to kill myself, just trying to feel again. feel anything. i didn't care what, i just didn't want to be numb like that anymore.
i punched a mirror and broke off a shard to utilize. four cuts (three on my wrist, one across my throat), 24 stitches, and 1/2 quart of blood transfusion later, i'm still alive. i nearly died a year ago, and i wouldn't wish such a thing on my worst enemy. i didn't want to have to take these pictures for you kids, because they're not things i'm proud of, but i've had to explain this time and again.
but in closing, serge, try cutting your wrist open and watching the blood trickle down around you, then give me some advice. i hope you never have to experience such a thing, truly, and i dont want to sound terribly rude, but keep your mouth shut about these things. especially cutting.
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<span style='color:purple'>*Bijiy goes to call Delarosa...</span>