First Day Of School Today
<div class="IPBDescription">what was yours like? girls..resist...</div> Last night I had one of those sleeps where I didn't sleep well. Your just lying in your bed thinking of stuff trying to stay still and fall asleep, but don't because your body is not tired. The funny thing is my sister came downstairs around 1:30 A.M and I didn't hear a thing, which must mean I did fall asleep but didn't notice it, because the moment I woke up at 3:30 A.M I was back to the exact thoughts I had before I fell asleep. This happenned on and off for the whole night.
Ok so I went to the 2,900 populated school that has no windows and looks like a jail today. YAY first class is Math, ***. Then second class is Comm tech..wow.....
Then in English, things got a bit interesting, this chick I have always had a deep crush on, walks in the class and sits behind me...She is the hottest chick...well to me...she isn't tall, about my height and whatnot, but do I give, hell no...Our gym class had social dance and I got to dance with her last year...her eyes are the most gorgeous eyes damn and she has dark hair and skin, nice facial structure, lips, body, neck. She also occasionally gives me the eye glance, in halls and other classes, but am I ever dreaming...
Wow, I wish I had the confidence to say something, but nah, I'm the guy in class that doesn't talk much. Only in options do I go lunatic. So yeah, she now sits behind me the whole year...with other guys who she talks to...
Girls are intoxicating. If I was the hot ****, I'd go say something to her. Im just the avg joe you see.
Anyways, what do girls like in guys? or maybe this is the wrong place to post. hehehhahahaheahhaha
OK.. I am tired, going to get a hair cut and then go to sleep. Or..umm, might go watch pitch black....decisions!
Ok so I went to the 2,900 populated school that has no windows and looks like a jail today. YAY first class is Math, ***. Then second class is Comm tech..wow.....
Then in English, things got a bit interesting, this chick I have always had a deep crush on, walks in the class and sits behind me...She is the hottest chick...well to me...she isn't tall, about my height and whatnot, but do I give, hell no...Our gym class had social dance and I got to dance with her last year...her eyes are the most gorgeous eyes damn and she has dark hair and skin, nice facial structure, lips, body, neck. She also occasionally gives me the eye glance, in halls and other classes, but am I ever dreaming...
Wow, I wish I had the confidence to say something, but nah, I'm the guy in class that doesn't talk much. Only in options do I go lunatic. So yeah, she now sits behind me the whole year...with other guys who she talks to...
Girls are intoxicating. If I was the hot ****, I'd go say something to her. Im just the avg joe you see.
Anyways, what do girls like in guys? or maybe this is the wrong place to post. hehehhahahaheahhaha
OK.. I am tired, going to get a hair cut and then go to sleep. Or..umm, might go watch pitch black....decisions!
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For example, (im 22 BTW) I was walking through the supermarket a few days ago, and a couple walked by me, I noticed a very familiar scent, it was bugging the hell out of me. A few years back I would have just left the supermarket, wondered about the scent for a few days and let it pass, but I finally decided that this couple would have absolutely no long term bearing or influence on my life so I promptly turned around and said "Excuse me, I don’t mean to come off weird, but one of you is wearing something that smell really nice, what is it?" the woman stood there for a second, game me a small smile and said "Patchouli, and you’re not the first one to ask" we had a brief conversation and parted ways. My curiosity was satisfied and I felt really good about the whole thing.
How this applies to your situation, this girl will blow you off, or accept you, those are the only two options, in 3 years she will be a memory (unless things work out and you become a long term couple) and will have no influence on you what so ever, so why not just ask? Its not like asking will MAKE her say no, she will make the decision no matter what.
Then I had to walk really far home in this scorching sun that melted a lot of stuff, like my brain.
My first day sucked, to say the least.
On another note, it was completely crowded when we were grabbing our stuff to go home. A kid shoved me into the lockers. I shoved him into the railing and then kicked him in the stomach. That was a really good-feeling, the guy was like a foot taller. Had I not been so tired, I would've thrown my PE lock at his head, but oh well.
Easier said that done, especially for me. A lot of people feel nervous out of anticipation of anxiety, like they're scared to go to school, but when they get to school they feel better and forget about the anxiety. I'm exactly the opposite, I don't worry about school, but when I arrive I feel this overwhelming anxiety suffocating me. That's just standing in a crowd, I can't even imagine talking to a stranger (especially a girl!). Fear is very subjective, so that makes the "Just do it!" advice useless for most of us. <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/sad.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad.gif'><!--endemo-->
Anyhow, first off ask if she has an e-mail address. If she does its a good sign. You can learn alot from a simple e-mail address, if its AOL, MSN, or CompuServe then she might not be too technically oriented. If it is an independant ISP e-mail address then it means she might have some technical ability. A good sign.
Second would be to maybe e-mail her, somehow integrate some technical words in there (My hard drive needed a defrag...) and see how she responds. If she ignores the technical stuff, sad face <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/sad.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad.gif'><!--endemo--> If she shows at least some intrest in what it means then happy face <!--emo&:)--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/smile.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='smile.gif'><!--endemo--> Because now you have a reason to communicate with her!
Anyhow, thats the Poor Geeks guide to getting a girl. So far my method hasnt turned anything up, unfortunatly <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/sad.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad.gif'><!--endemo-->
If your more 'I have a life' oriented, try just talking to a friend of hers and asking about her. Her friend will without a doubt tell her about it, perhaps putting the ball in her court and encouraging her to initiate conversation. Of course, this hasnt worked for me either.
Hm... on second thought. Ignore everything I just said. Im not too good at this <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/sad.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad.gif'><!--endemo-->
No. Don't do that. Ever.
Trust me. A guy asked his friend to ask my sister for her number, and she said no. She would've given it if he had asked her himself, but she told me to NEVER do that ever ever.
Besides, you mokneh, I think (and so do a lot of other people) it makes you look a little stupid.
I'm sure that works well I'll have to try that one day. wish me luck
Also, there are some slutty dressing or acting girls, that I have talked to in classes before and there really nice for some reason....But yeah, I need to get better at this..."socializing" business we humans like to call...Like I hope this year I will be able to get my voice heard in class, that is If my fear of them stops tanatalizing me...need confidence....lol
Anyway, yeh. Fantastic day, got to school descovered the school servers had gone down yet again. So we had to write our own timetables. Then to top it off after writing my timetable i discovered i had the day off and left scholl an 10:05 AM after starting at 9. Oh and loads of new hot lasses moved up into 6thform, ROCK!
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Hi (name),
This is kris , from school. I was just wondering what you were doing on Friday?
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To this:
Hi (name),
what was ourssd languagde arts hw yester day?
-me
I'm not that good with girls. Or other humans.
Well, at least it's good to know that I'm NOT ALONE!!!
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Well, at least it's good to know that I'm NOT ALONE!!!
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So glad that I am not alone.. <!--emo&:D--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/biggrin.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='biggrin.gif'><!--endemo--> Our school got cutback by the government and so our classes are so hugggeeee.. Commtech is full of people, like 30, and english is full too....yikes....sighh....
We need a woman on the board...ahem...jane...
EDIT: how do I resize pics?
On the plus side, it'll have lots of this: <!--emo&::asrifle::--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/asrifle.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='asrifle.gif'><!--endemo--> . And maybe a few scopians that hovar without flappign (sorry, I had to say it.)
However, I'm motivated, and tommorow, I will successfully obtain a date for the homecoming dance! Or, talk to a girl. I perfectly comfortable with guys, and girls i'm in a working group with. In fact, I'm often the boss. Kind of weird that as soon as the focus switches from work to personal I become horribly introverted. *DOCCHIMPY HAS MADE A BREAKTHROUGH* *me gets TEH COOKIE!!1!one!*
Ok, I just scared myself.
EDIT: offtopic, but for some odd reason, I keep visualizing kida as Mel Gibson. (At least I think that's the guy in your sig)
but then, after the dance, i realize that none of the girls who gave me (or forced me) their numbers were really the kinda thing i'm into. personality-wise.
the dancin was good, tho. the dean almost booted me. we got, perhaps... a bit overzealous?
edit: this one girl i might really start talking to (not with any goals, of course), because she's just a <i>damn</i> good dancer. she does a lotta stuff besides grindin, but when we did... sweeeet baby jesus. we made it <i>flow</i>. mmmmhmhmhm.
so yay, for the first week of school! horribly boring, and a belated term final test from last semester was given on the fourth day of school. but nevertheless, you always win when you end with near-dry-humping.
I don't look into people's eyes either. I don't even look into my girlfriend's eyes. In fact, we don't look at each other's faces much when talking to each other.
But this has nothing to do with me being introverted, because in reality, I'm not.
Try looking past the person you're trying to talk to. It may seem like you're looking at the person's face, but you're not. Your eyes seem like they're staring straight at his/her eyes, but not...get the picture? It helps also when presenting in front of a group of people.
i find this <i>so</i> hard to do.
i don't know how universal this is... but when socializing, we usually don't stare at each other.
but when i'm enjoying talking to someone (typically girls) i want to just look into their eyes when i talk to them, sometimes. and to look at their faces, and watch for expressions. sometimes she doesn't care, sometimes she gazes back, a little. but most of the time she'll just look away, and pull a strand of hair over her ear. you girls probably aren't aware of how often you do that.
oh well. =\
Easier said that done, especially for me. A lot of people feel nervous out of anticipation of anxiety, like they're scared to go to school, but when they get to school they feel better and forget about the anxiety. I'm exactly the opposite, I don't worry about school, but when I arrive I feel this overwhelming anxiety suffocating me. That's just standing in a crowd, I can't even imagine talking to a stranger (especially a girl!). Fear is very subjective, so that makes the "Just do it!" advice useless for most of us. <!--emo&:(--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/sad.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='sad.gif'><!--endemo--> <!--QuoteEnd--> </td></tr></table><span class='postcolor'> <!--QuoteEEnd-->
If the opinions of people who you don?t even know matter to you, then by all means spend the rest of your life being afraid. If you think the rest of the world is just sitting there waiting to judge you, you fall under the category of an egocentric person. One of the symptoms of egocentrism is agoraphobia or anxiety associated with public places (school) or contact with a crowd. trust me when I say you are the LAST thing on anyone?s mind when you are standing in a crowd, everyone has their own life to deal with, why should they concern themselves with yours? And its far better to get a definite answer (even if it is a negative one) then to spend a long while pondering the "what if."
My best friend is in love with my algerbra teacher (granted she is only 22 and single and very pretty but still) A girl I have a crush on wont even pay attention to me. Ill never have a girlfriend I know that. My locker almost blew apart
My family burst apart at the seams today. I got made fun of by a bunch of stuck up freaking asshats (Jocks) for no reason. And Im surrounded by a bunch of idiots in the one computer class Im in (seniors that dont know what 'Left Click' means) and so on and so forth, so theres a glimpse into my **** up life. NEXT!
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I love my computer as much as the next guy, but if you were to send me an e-mail like this, not only would it make me feel stupid, it's make me not want to hang around you, because I wouldn't want to always be talking about computers, EGADS! I know way too many people that think a conversation about video cards over lunch is interesting. <!--emo&???--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/confused.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='confused.gif'><!--endemo--> I definately wouldn't want to hook up with another guy like that. You might want to at least make it appear as though you care about more then just computers. Just a suggestion.
(p.s. I like computer geeks but this is going too far...)
btw bos I got a 12 on the autism test-> I'm just so darn social <!--emo&:D--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/biggrin.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='biggrin.gif'><!--endemo-->
edit: if you score lower than 12, maybe you have other problems. lol
It's good seeing all my friends again anyways....especially the girls..... <!--emo&:D--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/biggrin.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='biggrin.gif'><!--endemo-->
The one thing that I don't miss is all of the drama....*sigh* WOOT IM A BIG JUNIOR NOW!!@!! WAHOO!
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Oh yeah.....for me, this year isn't as cool as all the other years...It's my first year not playing football since my freshman year. Stupid knee surgery.....I shall be back next year! yar har har!
kida: I know someone who has a similar problem with eye to eye contact. Not sure what advice I can give you, but I know sometimes it helps to know you're not alone <!--emo&:D--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/biggrin.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='biggrin.gif'><!--endemo-->.
School will be starting tomorrow for me, and although I went to bed at eleven (compared to the usual 5am) I can't seem to be able to sleep. There's just too many things on my mind. The hell I've had to go through for the past 9 years at school hasn't made school something I look forward to. In elementary I was the smart, shy, and annoying kid the bullies liked to pick on. Not too good for my self esteem. When I moved to new jersey and started middle school, my "social life" declined even more. I was regularly bullied picked on, and rejected. Life was a ****.
A year and a half later, I moved to california. Life was, if possible, even worse. I was an average jackass and loser. I did everything for attention. Even now I'm still very attention hungry. Even on these forums I occassionally make the "smartalec" in the hopes someone will drop a fake "lol" or something. *sigh*
Because I don't feel like writing a ten page post, we'll just FF to last year ok?
Last year was a lot better. I guess I just finally matured. I started making friends (mostly girls, to my surprise), but I was still something of a loser. I had my first real experience with a girl -- the rejection part anyway. Nuff said.
This year ... I don't know what to expect. I still don't have anyone to lean on, and most people TBH don't really care about me. I'm hoping something good happens this year, I don't think I can afford to go through the rollercoaster of last year.
There I've said it, I'm a freaking loser. You may now proceed to flip me over and take my lunch money <!--emo&:p--><img src='http://www.unknownworlds.com/forums/html/emoticons/tounge.gif' border='0' style='vertical-align:middle' alt='tounge.gif'><!--endemo-->.
TRUST ME the only thing you will regret in life are the things YOU NEVER DID.
1m wrkin in a mcdonnnels now.... i womder why.
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acually i just moved down from a rich school.. to a poor school,
in the rich school i was a C-D-F student. in the poor school, i was stright As
so yeah, i didnt have to go to school.. and it feels GREAT!!!!