bad experiences.. im just writing..
hey guys sorry this is pretty much shite.. just i am feeling abit low atm...
i went on a break with with my g.f a while back and it was pretty much apparent that we were going to get back togetehr or at least she thought that.... during the break i thoguth alot and grew up alot.. it took help from some people to help me realise things but our 2 year relationship was dead... and thats how it was.. so today at around 2:30 i went round and did the deed..
she led me upstairs.. all shaky and nervous.. and stood there with puppyeyes looking up at me.. and i told her straight out.. and the look.. i swear it has never cut deeper... and she broke into tears and then yeah... then i being the *************** that i am started crying.. i mean this is 2 years gone.. thats alot of history...
i then went dotnstairs and told her mom, i got on really well with her parents etc and she loves her mom so figured they could talk and so her mom went up to see her.. and so here i am...
i am happy cos i did the right thing.. she is having a rough life at the moment rellies in hospital etc.. but yeah i couldnt leave it.. it is wrong.. so now i feel like the meanest guy in the world for doing this to her
and im sorry for this post it was just an attempt to clear your head.. i keep getting feelings of regret.. but i know they are false.. i mean i know what i had to do.. there was no love there... but i still just regret hurting her so much... cos she is like my best friend
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